I had a choice, and I chose wrong.
I thought I lost everything. But when the smoke finally cleared, I discovered that I wasn’t alone.
Father Sullivan was a force – a living and breathing force, a forbidden desire I couldn’t resist. I didn’t want to resist. But I wasn’t the only one who wanted him, and by all accounts neither of us should have him.
I had decisions to make, secrets to uncover. Both would tear my heart, my life, and what was left of my family apart.
I wasn’t going to take any chances this time around. If I’d learned one thing during my life, it’s that death is the only certainty. It’s a matter of when, not if.
For every action, there is a reaction. For every choice, a consequence. If I hadn’t chosen to live again, I would have never known what life could be like… With the Father
If there was ever a time I’m glad I didn’t DNF a book, it would be right now. I was 3 star cruising through a great part of the book and then the most crazy and wicked twist happened and now I see the entire story in a different light. One look at the cover, teasers, and blurb and my mind settled on a forbidden romance that had something to do with a priest and two sisters. In a way I was right, but in many other ways I was wrong. This book initially started out as a forbidden story, but evolved into something much grander than its original premise. I wasn’t looking for it, didn’t see it coming, and I’m not going to pinpoint exactly where in the plot that revelation came for me, but I will say that all the clues are there in the book, namely the dedication –For anyone who’s ever second guessed a decision and wondered what if…This book is all about the what if. About characters knowing their reality but still daring to wonder what would happen if their what if became true. Reading this book was literally like being in a dream, and like all dreams, we have to wake up at some point. That waking point was when my epiphany kicked in to what this book was really about. I think every reader needs to experience that euphoria, mindfuck, WTF moment, whatever you want to call it. So as much of a spoiler whore I am, I’m not about to ruin that experience for you.I purposely didn’t mention the characters because it’s really not for me to say whose story this is really about, and I am SO very thankful the author didn’t name specifics in the blurb either. As readers, we are all going to have a different take on our reads and it will never be truer with this book, a story where multiple theories are plausible. Multiple what ifs.Initially I intended to rate this book 4-4.5 stars because I spent most of the time wondering why I felt a puzzle piece was missing up until the big twist. However, I finished this super late last night and did nothing productive the next day. It was like I was disconnected from real life, constantly mulling over this story in my head. Very rarely do books (good or bad) make that kind of impact on me so to have my thoughts be consumed by this story long after the last page is flipped means a great deal to me. Even though I had minor issues here and there, the overall significance of this story made me bump up my rating.Because of how ambitious and intricate this storyline is, I can only review the book in this vague way, sorry! It’s pure torture because my fingers are itching to spoil everything but my brain is saying to let everyone experience it on their own. Literally every word has a double meaning, and I think it’s the most wonderful feeling to be armed with the knowledge of what the book premise is truly about and then go back and find out where the author dropped hints in the story. I already know this is a book that will evoke different opinions from readers but I can guarantee that whether or not you end up enjoying the book, you’ll be thinking about it for days to come.